"She’s growing up, though." he thought feeling a loving
protectiveness swell in his breast. Light streamed through the large
stained glass windows, illuminating Clari’s thoughtful, blue eyes. With a
finale wishful thought, Clari looked away from the stained glass portrait of
a mother and child and continued his purposeless wandering. Whatever trace of
emotion had been briefly visible on his face disappeared once again. Clari’s
thoughts and feeling were not on display for the random passerby.
The light cast by the falling sun hardly illuminated the hallways any longer,
and Clari could see servants emerging to light the various ornate candles
that lined the walls and decorated the corners of the castle. As his head
turned to watch the movements of such candle lighter, his eyes caught the
briefest hint of red. Letting his gaze fall fully on the mysterious color,
the High Priest found himself staring at the profile of the Queen.
Flute stood within one of the many social rooms through out the castle. Her
head was peeked just past the door way as though she were looking for
something. Her face wore an expression of hopeful expectancy.
"Flute-Ojosama," Clari addressed. The young girl startled slightly
then quickly recovered herself.
"Oh, hello Clarinet-san," she said. Clari bowed slightly. If her
use of his formal name, as opposed to Queen horn’s familiarity bothered him,
he gave no outward sign.
"Good evening, you majesty." Flute flushed slightly at the title,
the country bred girl inside shuddering. Flute waved her hand,
protesting. "Ahh Clarinet-san, you can get up, truly, it‘s
ok." Clari rose as the young girl wished.
"Can I help you, Flute-sama," Clari inquired. "You appeared to
be looking for something."
"Yes, actually, " Flute answered, gesturing for Clari to enter the
small room with her. "My brother and I were studying the history
of this city together. I know so little about it that it is often
embarrassing. Onii-sama said he was going to get more books in the
library." Flute finished. As she talked, Clari lit a few of the candles,
trying to bring some light into the barren white study. Flute paced a
bit, wringing her hands together. Occasionally her glance would wander to the
doorway behind Clari. The blonde man merely waited silently for his queen to
express fully what worried her.
"He left over an hour ago," Flute finally said, looking up at
Clari.
Clari’s eyebrows rose in surprise at that statement. Though it was a ways
off, even allowing time to find the books he wanted, Lute should have
returned long ago.
"If you wish to go look for him, I can remain here, in case he
returns," Clari offered.
Flute, however, shook her head. "We were doing this to pass the time
before the Queen of Diminuendo arrived. I’m to discuss a minor dispute she’s
having with her neighboring country. If I leave now, I might not be here when
she arrives."
"And that would be most unwise," Clari murmured.
Flute nodded emphatically, wincing slightly as she thought about the elder
woman’s sharp temper and generally foul disposition. "She’d take it as a
personal insult I’m sure. But I’m worried I can’t imagine what happened to
Lute." Clari guessed that Flute was also nervous about holding a
political meeting without her most trusted advisor present. His gaze wandered
over the queen of but a few weeks. She’d proven her will to be strong, and
her heart merciful, yet proper decorum and diplomatic procedure still often
escaped her.
Flute sat down a bit awkwardly in her gown. The blue silk of her skirt flowed
haphazardly over the white cushions of the chair. Two weeks time was not long
enough for Flute to adjust yet to the strangeness of her surroundings.
Clari’s instincts insisted that he offer to stay with the nervous queen
during her meeting. The Queen of Diminuendo, however, had taken offense to
him for some reason or another in the last few days, and had requested not to
see him on this visit. As though guessing his thoughts, Flute looked up and
tried to smile reassuringly.
"I’ve already had Percus sent for her, and, truly, I think I can deal
with her. After mazoku and all, how bad can one cranky woman be?"
Clari allowed a soft smile to grace his lips for the girl’s benefit and self
esteem.
"No trouble at all, I’m sure." Still however, the guardian of
the royal family felt as though there aught to be something he should do for
the obviously troubled Queen. Though she hid her grief well, her recently
torn heart felt every trouble so acutely. A thought formed in his head,
something that seemed simple enough but that he was sure would please Flute.
"Then allow me to look for your brother, and I can send word to you when
I find him, as I doubt her excellency of Diminuendo would wish to be
disturbed by such an esteemed presence as Lute Ouji once her meeting has
begun.
Flute looked hopefully up at Clari, eyes brimming with relief. "Would
you? That would be wonderful."
"Of course," Clari answered, kneeling ever so slightly.
Flute leaned forward and clasped his hand. It had taken her time to warm up
to the soft-spoken, seemingly cold young man. Yet, she’d found Clari to be
more then dependable, and always helpful in ways she often didn’t even
realize she needed help in. "Clari,
can I... may I make another request of you?"
Clari nodded once, then waited to hear what she asked.
"When you find him, will you talk with him?"
"Talk with him?" Clari questioned.
Flute nodded. "Yes, try to get him to talk."
Clari couldn’t help the laughter that twitched at his lips. "My Queen,
Lute-sama has never needed encouragement to talk."
Flute giggled slightly, her hands still entwined with Clari’s. Her face
quickly became serious though, "No, I mean, something is bothering him,
but when I try to bring it up, he turns the conversation onto all my problems
before I even realize what he’s done. You are," Flute searched a moment
for the words, "you are not so easily side tracked and I think it’s
something he simply doesn’t wish to burden me with." Flute's brown eyes
became pleading, "Please though, try to get him to talk. I know
something's troubling him, and if he won‘t talk with me about it, then I at
least can find someone who he might share with."
Clari nodded sympathetically to Flute. "I will try my best, my Queen."
Flute nodded and released his hands. Clari bowed formally, more than a bit
surprised by the trust she had placed in him. For once Flute didn’t protest.
She smiled gratefully and bowed in response to Clari.
"Thank you," She called out softly as the High Priest turned and
left the room.
Clari arrived at the library and quickly ascertained that Lute was not there.
Clari had checked each table, each row of books, and any alcoves or
sequestered areas he had found. The man had asked every patron if they’d seen
or heard the young Prince at all that evening. No one had seen the young
Prince, nor could anyone even remember him passing by. To be sure, Clari had
searched the large room a third time, looking for any sign that Lute had even
been there. He came across nothing. With a sigh, Clari admitted that
searching the library further would prove fruitless. Lute simply must have
gone somewhere else. The High Priest sat down in a large wooden chair and
gazed up at his staff as he pondered this puzzle.
"Deceitfulness is not in him, especially not to Flute." Clari
rested his chin in his hand, his eyes unfocused on the world around him.
Though they had only known each other for a scant two weeks, a strong bond of
love and trust had already formed between Flute and Lute. Clari could not
imagine anything that would cause Lute to simply leave his sister with no
explanation. Even less likely was the possibility that Lute would lie about
his whereabouts to his beloved sister, knowing how sensitive she was.
"But then, why isn’t he here?" Clari murmured aloud.
Suddenly the answer appeared in Clari’s mind as clearly as if he’d been told.
"Of course," he sighed. With controlled movements, he rose gracefully
from the chair. Pausing only to brush strands of blonde hair from his face,
he continued on his search for the missing Prince.
Clari paused trying to recall what direction he should go. He’d not been down
these halls in a long time. Though rebuilt after its destruction in the first
war, all the important items here had been moved to a safer location, and
this area of the castle had fallen into disuse. Sunlight warmed the gloomy
halls a little. The shiny beams of light caught the dust that floated thick
in the air, turning the specks to gold. A sense of melancholy clung to
the stonewalls that not even the rich decorations could dispel. It was like a
house that, having been abandoned, still longed for the family that had made
it a home. As Clari had guessed, he found Lute wondering the lonely
passage. The sunlight gleamed off the robes, which ruffled softly, silk
against silk, with each unsure step the Prince took. Moving steadily closer,
Clari began to notice something odd about he way the younger man moved.
Rather than his usual self-assured gait, Lute walked with his shoulders
slumped slightly. His head moved jerkily as he looked around, tense with
frustration. Clari could distinctly hear uncharacteristic utterances escaping
from dark haired boy.
"Ouji-sama." He murmured in respectful tones as he approached
further. Lute froze in mid step. His eyes widened and he jerked
slightly, like a small bird startled, realizing a cat had crept up on him.
"Your sister sent me to..."Clari trying to think of a graceful way
to finish that thought. "...to see what had happened to you. She became
concerned."
Lute turned and looked up at the taller man. A smile appeared on his face
covering the distress Clari knew had been there just seconds before.
"She was worried. She’s so sweet, isn’t she? She’ll make a wonderful
Queen, with such a gentle concerned heart. But no, I’m fine as you can see.
Silly me just got lost. I could have sworn the library was down this
way. Really, you’d think I’d know my way around after living here so
long. But you moved it away from here. I forgot, but then it seems I can‘t
even find where it used to be anyway." Lute spoke quickly, his words
seemed to hold laughter just barely at bay. In one energetic step he hopped
over next to Clari and gestured merrily for the High Priest to lead the way.
"Well, it will hardly do to keep my lovely sister waiting. I trust you
know the way back because I certainly don’t." Lute
looked up at Clari, still smiling gaily. The Grand Commander, however, was
not responding as most people did. When affronted by Lute’s good nature and
charm, most people found themselves at ease and let their guard down, willing
to joke and play along with the boisterous Prince. This had been especially
true of one small blonde haired, violet-eyed child that Lute had known what
seemed to him to have been only a few months ago. The stern blue eyes of
Clari however gazed at Lute as though trying to discern something he couldn‘t
quite put together yet. Lute found himself avoiding the piercing violet gaze.
Finally he spoke, his voice, calm and controlled, showed no sign of the
easily awed boy he’d once been.
"It is growing late, Lute-sama. The Queen is surely deep into
discussions with her Majesty of Diminuendo. I believe it would not be prudent
for us to disturb them."
Lute snickered, as the walked down the hall. "You mean for you to show
your face around her, especially." Affectionately, Lute patted Clari on
the back. "Someday, Clari-ch... "Lute choked of the rest of the
diminutive nickname that came so easily to his mouth. "Someday,
Clari-san, you will have to tell me exactly what you did to anger her
so." Clari made a noncommittal noise, not wishing to think about that
particular incident overly much.
"Well I guess then, if it’s late as you say, then perhaps you can just
help me find my room." More words fell from Lute’s mouth but Clari
looked past them and tried to catch a glimpse of the young boy’s eyes.
Finally, Lute could stand the silence of his companion no longer.
"Clari, is something wrong?"
"The library had been right here." Clari intoned softly, ignoring
the spoken question all together. Lute looked to where the high Priest
indicated and saw an empty room. "It is not silly for you to have
looked for the library down this way. You needn’t feel so embarrassed
Ouji-sama."
Lute fell silent and looked down at his feet. "No, you showed me where
it got moved to. I should have remembered. I should have realized I was
making a mistake as soon as the hallways began to get darker. It‘s just,
well, it‘s confusing. The time that passed doesn‘t…" Lute scratched the
back of his head. "Not everything is quite reconciled in my poor head,
you know." Lute continued to look cheerful, but his words had lost
the lightness the held before, and his voice had begun to shake. Clari
continued to study Lute’s actions, slowly realizing something. For a brief moment,
Lute’s bright blue eyes met Clari’s gaze. Truth passed between them in that
second.
Shaken, and still trying to hold is true thoughts beyond Clari’s sight, Lute
turned away and walked to the closed doors of the library. He laid one hand
on the iron latch to the doors and lifted it up. With a loud clank, the
forgotten room opened for it’s most frequent visitor, once upon a time. With
a soft exhalation, Lute stepped past the doorway and into the room. He could
hear Clari’s footsteps behind him. Walking to the middle of the room, he
looked around.
Nothing remained. Not a table, or chair, or even a solitary bookshelf had
been left to the room. Only dust lived there now. The stained glass windows
shone their brilliant rainbows onto nothing. Even some of the study rooms had
been lost to the reconstruction. What had once been a warm maze of ancient
and new books was now merely a stark and bleak rectangle. Memories of events
that seemed o have occurred not long ago filled his mind, but he knew that 15
years of pain separated him for those happy recollections.
"It’s strange." Lute murmured his voice softer now.
"Everything is so changed, everything, everyone..." Lute’s words
trailed away as he felt Clari’s presence next to him and realized he’d spoken
out loud.
"I’m sorry," he apologized, "I don’t know why I said
that." Lute shook his head.
"Things always change, Ouji-sama. People, surroundings, time affects
everything, adding or taking away as it will." Clari fell silent, not
sure how to brooch the subject of what he knew truly bothered Lute. Not that
things had changed, but that he’d not been there to witness the change, to be
part of it. Lute could never reclaim the fifteen years that he had lost.
Lute stared past Clari, "Did you really need to move the library?"
he asked. Clari cocked his head to the side, choosing to listen for now.
"This location as so nice, away from the busy hub of the rest of the
castle. You repaired the room why move the library? Why not fix the entire
room?" As he spoke Lute wandered to a part of the wall and pressed
against it. "You didn’t have to change everything did you?" Lute
asked, trying to keep his voice sounding merely curious. The slight unsteadiness
of his hands betrayed the prince's true feelings. Clari suspected that
Lute was now keeping his head bowed to the ground to hide his large,
expressive eyes.
Clari moved to stand next to Lute and placed his own hand against the wall. A
hollow thud echoed from Clari’s touch. Behind the wall was a tiny alcove. A
seat had been built into that wall, in front of a window. Memories stirred
behind his calm mask. Lute used to sit in tat spot and read books to him,
Sax, Timpani, and other children who gathered around. The seat had been
hallow, and beneath the cushion, Lute had tucked away their favorite stories.
"The books we kept here survived. I put them in my study."
Lute’s shoulders shook slightly, but when he looked up at Clari his eyes were
clear. "You remember?’ he asked, trying to force a happy note back into
his voice. He continued to try and play as though Clari had not seen through
him. "I would have thought with all that must have happened to you, such
a little thing might be forgotten by the great Commander of Sfortzendo."
A small smile fluttered across Clari’s lips at the happy memory.
"Yes, I recall. Why would I forget such a thing?"
Lute shrugged and looked away, why indeed? "Why, then, did you let them
build over it?’ he asked.
Clari shook his head, "Lute, they simply walled this area up. Whole
rooms are covered by wall now. A little alcove was not worth the time
involved to preserve."
"Pity," Lute murmured after a long period of silence. "If it
were still here, I’d offer to read to you and Sax, just for old time‘s
sake." Clari stiffened slightly. He could still recall the pain in his
heart when he’d been brought news of his friend’s death.
"Ouji-sama," he began delicately, not sure if anyone had ever told
Lute.
Lute however had gone white. "I forgot." he said softly, his eyes
wide and staring at nothing. Lute turned wildly to look at his friend.
"Oh God, Clari I’m sorry." The boy’s mouth continued to move, yet
no more words followed. Finally the tears that he had been fighting trickled
down his cheeks. "He begged me for his life. I couldn’t stop. I couldn’t
even say anything to him." Lute’s words flowed disjointed and the boy
fell back against the wall. His knees becoming week as the horrors he’d tried
to suppress pushed their way into his consciousness. "Bass made
me," Lute whimpered, sliding toward the ground, "Bass… I laughed at
him. Oh God, Clari all I could do was laugh while he died."
Lute clenched his fists together, red droops of blood pooling around his
nails. Hitting the ground, he simply fell over, holding his knees to his
chest.
Though Clari had long since realized that Lute’s cheerful act was a mask for
the hurt he felt, the Grand Commander had not been prepared for this. Frozen
by indecision, Clari stood helplessly by as Lute continued to sob on the
ground. He knew though that he couldn’t simply leave Lute to weep on the
floor.
"This is awkward," Clari murmured has he bent down and gathered the
weeping Prince into his arms. Clari’s feeling of impropriety increased as
Lute grasped blindly out for him encircling his shaking arms around Clari‘s
neck. Still sobbing, Lute buried his face against Clari’s chest, his tears
darkening the purple fabric. Clari looked down at Lute, feeling a sudden
strong protective urging, as he often did when he comforted his younger
sister. Clari began to rock Lute, as he had done for Coro whenever she’d been
upset. After a while, Lute regained control of himself, and his sobbing
ceased.
"I’m sorry." Lute said softly, as he ran the back of his hand
across his cheeks. "Truly, you shouldn’t have had to do that, but
thank you. I am better now." Lute stood quickly and Clari let go of the
Prince with some feeling of relief. However, he couldn’t simply let Lute
brush past his own pain, especially when it ran so deeply.
Clari gazed up at Lute. "Ouji-sama, forgive my impertinence, but you can
not expect to be able to deal with what Bass did to you by yourself."
Lute flinched at that name, but Clari continued, recalling Flute‘s request.
"You say that the pains of the heart often need a friendly ear in order
to be truly expelled, and yet you refuse to share yours, hiding behind the
mask of your former self. Everything and everyone changes, Lute. You pretend
to be the same as you were fifteen years ago but you are not. You and
you sister have a special bond; perhaps you should talk to her about all that
has happened to you. She shares your capacity to heal."
To Clari’s surprise, Lute went rigid and his eyes darkened. "No!"
he snapped, drawing himself up. "No, I will not burden my sister with
this. She has more than enough pain in her life and I will not have her
empathizing with what I went through. No one should have to know what that’s
like! You will not tell her what happened just now!"
Clari bowed, "As you wish, Ouji-sama." He answered submissively.
Lute drew back shaking his head, "No," he said weakly,
"I didn’t mean it has a, that wasn’t an order, Clari. Just please, don’t
tell her. She’ll try and take on my suffering as well, and one person’s heart
can only hold so much pain."
Clari nodded in understanding but then met Lute’s eyes calmly. "And your
heart can hold what you feel?"
"It is of no matter." Lute murmured. "Well it’s not!" He
repeated almost indignantly when Clari’s disbelieving expression never
wavered. "I don’t intend to trouble anyone, not Flute, not you."
"This explains why you’ve not slept," Clari said almost to himself
interrupting the Prince.
"What?" Lute asked, startled.
"What’s not expressed during the day is expressed during the night.
Flute says you haven't slept well since you returned."
"That’s not it." Lute protested, an angry tinge in his voice.
"I just never got to sleep in the Northern Capital. Apparently Bass
didn‘t need it!" Lute answered. "I’m readjusting to normal human
hours."
Clari rose to his feet and stood over the much shorter boy. "Lying is
unlike you my Prince," he responded
daringly.
"Stepping out of line is unlike you," Lute snapped. Then instantly
the angry mask shattered. His blue eyes widened, shocked and aghast at his own tone.
"Clari, I..."
"Forgive me, my Prince," Clari said softly, but he did not bow.
"You weren’t out of line," Lute murmured still regretful. Then he paused,seeming to waiver between two courses. After a moment of silense, his blue eyes flickered upward and caught Clari's. "You are
right," Lute whispered, "I’m not sleeping well. I just can’t."
Clari simply looked down at the shorter boy, waiting for him to say more. The
two stood silently in the abandoned room. Lute paused to watch the sunset for
a moment, trying to collect himself still.
"I’m scared of my own dreams. Silly isn't it?" He explained, trying
to brush off his nervousness with laughter, once again, but doubting Clari
would be fooled. "I know they can’t hurt me. I can’t even remember them
that well. Only the fear."
Lute walked a little closer to Clari, away from the shadows that seemed to
creep out from the side of the wall.
"Let me escort back to your room," Clari finally said. Spoken in a
warm voice that Lute had not heard Clari use, it wasn’t a dismissal of his
fears, but an offer of protection.
"Yes," Lute agreed, looking down and smiling ever so slightly.
They walked silently, each lost in their own thoughts. The entire trip back,
neither spoke a word. Enough had been said and unsaid between them for the moment.
Reaching the destination, Clari stopped his brisk pace abruptly.
Lute, who had been trailing behind slightly, walked directly into the back of
the tall Priest.
"Sorry," he mumbled sheepishly.
Clari shook his head, "It’s all right." The tall blonde was more
than used to having people walk into him. Normally either his sister,
Coronet, or the young Prince of Del Segno whom she’d taken to spending time
with.
"Your room," Clari
said.
"Ah yes," Lute answered. Stepping in front of Clari, he pushed open
the door to his room. "It’s late, I suppose I should try to sleep."
"Yes," Clari agreed. "If you can,"
Lute felt his stomach quiver at the thought of another night alone with his
fears. He looked at Clari, an idea whispering to him. Though night had fallen long
before they’d reached the assumed safety of his room, his fears seemed to ahve been held at bay by Clari's presence. Lute bit his lip, not
sure if he wanted to voice the request, realizing again that Clari was no longer a childhood friend, and the familiarity between them was likely no more then a ghost of a memory to him. Still though, Clari did seem concerned
for his welfare.
"Clari-ch , Clari-san" he corrected. "My I make a ermmm odd
request of you?"
Clari paused then nodded to the Prince, wondering what he had in mind.
"Would you stay with me tonight?" Lute asked, trying to sound
nonchalant. "You expressed concern about my sleep. I’m fairly sure it
would help some if I weren’t alone at night."
Clari just barely contained a nervous twitch. Such an offer was indeed odd to
say the least.
"Lute-sama," he began cautiously, "Perhaps you’re sister would
be a better choice."
"No, I told you, I won’t let her see me bothered by this." Lute
reiterated stubbornly. Looking up into Clari's suddenly stoney face, he could tell the young
man had been put off by his request.
"Forgive me," the Prince said softly. "I thought... I forget... Sharing a room is no longer quite the same as it was, eh?" He said with false humor. "Never mind, then." Lute waved his hand in dismissal. Clari however stood
where he was.
"No, you’ve merely asked me to guard your sleep. I am the guardian of
the royal family after all, am I not?"
Surprise shown briefly in Lute’s eyes, then his joy and relief quickly
overcame his initial reaction. Lute took a step forward as if to embrace
Clari, but then paused at the last minute as he again remembered that Clari
was no longer the little boy he recalled.
"Thank you," he said simply. Lute found himself yawning suddenly.
"Mm I guess the thought of actually getting some sleep reminds me that I
am tired." With that he excused himself to prepare for bed in another
room. Clari sat and waited in a large chair, passing time by looking around
the room.
He remembered when the rows of book had been an intriguing mystery to him.
Now, he’d read most of them and was probably as familiar with their contents
as Lute was himself. He could also remember when the table that he now sat in
front of had been taller then his head. This entire room, which seemed small
and quaint, had once appeared vast and mysterious to the eyes of a young
child.
A soft noise by the door caught his attention and he turned to see Lute
standing by the doorway to his bedroom. A long white flannel nightdress
covered him. Clari remembered it from his childhood, yet now, seeing Lute
Ouji in such an informal state brought pangs of embarrassment to the High
Priest.
"Still," he reminded himself, "I swore to defend to royal
family in any capacity. I suppose this does count."
The sound of Lute’s voice drew Clari from his own thoughts to what Lute was
saying.
"... And so I pulled out some extra pillows, a blanket for you, and
pushed some chairs together, if you get sleepy. I figured you’re too
old to share a bed with me now." Lute laughed.
"Ah, yes," Clari replied evenly.
"You know, come to think of it, these are probably the same extra
pillows I had stored away for when you came here at night." The black
haired boy commented as Clari followed him into the bedroom.
Clari nodded and took a seat in the chair. He watched as Lute drew back the
covers and climbed into his own bed. He felt a sudden urge to tuck the Prince
in as he’d done for Coro so many times; however, he didn’t act. He
merely watched as Lute arranged himself in the bed, pushing pillows about and
shifting positions several times, like a kitten trying out a new sleeping
spot. After much moving about, Lute finally lay still. Clari let his staff
rest against the wall beside him, trying not to think about the idiot rumors
this would likely start. "One good Ten Rin should deal with that
though," he laughed silently to himself.
Suddenly Lute sat up in his bed. "Aren’t you going to sleep?" Lute
asked. His blue eyes watched Clari curiously.
"I can’t guard your sleep if I sleep myself." Clari replied.
"Oh," was all Lute said. Then he shifted some more before finally
laying still. Clari again went back to simply watching the Prince. After a
moment, Lute’s head popped up from the pillow again.
"Aren’t you bored? I could go get you a book or something?"
Clari raised an eyebrow. "I’m meditating, Lute-sama, and I brought some
books in here with me."
"Oh," There was a slight pause "Are you comfortable, can I get
you another pillow?"
Clari sighed, "I’m perfectly fine, Ouji-sama."
"Ok then," Lute answered, then he moved around some more.
Clari watched as Lute squirmed for hours. Just when he thought the Prince
might be dozing off, his blue eyes would open wide, or he’d make another inquiry
into Clari’s well being, or he’d simply shift around in the bed. Over the
hours, the Prince's speech became slurred, and occasionally incoherent, but
every time sleep threatened to overcome him, Lute would do something to keep
himself awake.
Finally Clari put aside a book he’d begun to read and went over to the Prince's bed.
"You are defeating the point of trying to sleep, Ouji-sama."
"You don’t need to call me that," Lute murmured, shifting around so
he could see Clari.
The High Priest stared down at the Prince. His eyes stood out, a bright blue
against the dark bags that were evidence of Lute‘s troubled sleep.
"Lute-Niichan," Clari murmured, sitting down on the edge of the
bed. The sad, cobalt eyes widened in surprise. He hadn't expected Clari to call him
that again.
"You must let yourself fall asleep." The blonde man
continued.
Lute sighed softly, "I’m afraid too," he whispered,drowsiness slurring his speech slightly. "I’m so tired
but I can’t fall asleep."
A memory stirred in Clari’s memories.
"Lute-Nisan."
Groggy blue eyes opened and looked at the small blonde child cuddled against
him.
"Can you not sleep, Clari-chan?"
The little boy shook his head, then buried his face against his Nii-san as
another loud crash of thunder resounded through the room. "I’m scared to
go to sleep," Clari whimpered. Lute smiled warmly down at his young
friend.
"Clari-chan, I can help you sleep, if you will allow me to."
Clari blinked the memory and looked back at Lute.
"Lute Nii-san, I can help you sleep, if you will allow me to."
Clari watched as Lute’s blue eyes widened slightly and he knew the young
Prince remembered that night, long ago, as well.
"You know that spell." Lute murmured.
Clari did smile at that, momentarily prideful. He had impressed Lute. The
childish joy quickly died down, however, and Clari merely nodded solemnly.
Part of him feared Lute would be insulted that he’d made the offer. It seemed
horribly improper that he should suggest placing a spell, no matter how
harmless, on the Prince of Sfortzendo.
Lute, however, smiled warmly up at him, the same expression Clari had seen so
many times before in happier days.
"No, I don’t mind. I trust you." He said, repeating the words that
the young Clari had told him when he made the same offer. Clari found his
unease vanish at that. Suddenly he felt as though he were merely with a close
friend or sibling, not royalty. He felt as though the times he and Lute had
sought each other out for companionship might not be so long ago after all.
"Nii-san," he murmured gently. His hand began to glow with a warm,
yellow light as he placed his hand against Lute’s forehead, massaging the
boy’s temple. He felt the Prince give in to the spell allowing its soothing
warmth to wash through him. His bright blue eyes unfocused, then darkly
lashed eyelids slipped slowly closed. With a soft sigh, he relaxed and finally
fell into the depths of sleep.
After a brief moment of perfect stillness, Clari slowly withdrew his hand
then slid noiselessly from the bed and resettled in his chair. As he sat and
watched Lute sleep, it occurred to him that he’d never seen the Ouji like
this. Lute had always fallen a sleep after him and been awake long before
him. Curious, Clari continued to look at the sleeping Prince. Lute slept on
his side, with the covers down about his waste, facing Clari. His mouth was
parted slightly and he made a soft almost snoring noise as he breathed in and
out. Without letting himself think, Clari rose from his chair, lifted the
covers, and tucked the sleeping Prince in. Then he returned to his chair,
where he kept silent vigil over Lute for the rest of the night.
From the chair, Clari watched the morning light begin to filter into the room
and caress the still sleeping Prince with it’s light. The Priest stood and
stretched slightly, ignoring the weariness of his own body. Stiff muscles
were stretched and worked out. The corner of his eye caught movement from the
bed and he watched as Lute yawned, and did his own stretching. His eyes
blinked open. The black haired boy smiled drowsily as he rubbed the sleep
from them, then ruffled his already tangled hair as he scratched his head.
"G‘Morning" he murmured, squinting at the blonde man who stood
composed before him. "You look far too good for someone in the
morning,"
"Good Morning, Prince Lute. Did you sleep well?" Clari responded
formally. Lute sighed, missing Nii-san already. Little Clari would have made
some humorous comment back to him. "Slept fine, thank you," Lute
mumbled, scratching his back.
"It looks like a lovely day." Clari commented, looking out the
window.
Lute turned and smiled back at Clari. "Yes it does." he
agreed. His long fingers reached for the top button of his nightdress
absently. Clari turned away. "I will be in the next room," he
commented.
"Mmmmm," Lute answered still not fully awake. Clari shook his head
and left, allowing the Prince privacy. After spending a few moments, the
young Prince emerged still tying up his outer vest. His cowl hung crookedly
off one shoulder and with a shake. Clari sighed and walked over to Lute,
straightening the garment.
Lute blinked up at him, grinning from ear to ear "Mother always tsked at
me," he commented. Clari froze realizing that Lute was not Coronet and
he had no business fixing the boys attire.
"Forgive me," he stammered. "The lack of sleep..."
Lute just laughed more. "Next time you tsk and say ‘Lute-kun can’t you
dress yourself yet.’"
Clari said nothing and merely stood watching the prince. Finally Lute broke
the long silence.
"Clari, did you only stay with me because of your duty to my
family?"
The High Priest pondered the question for a long while, trying to come up
with some way to express his thoughts verbally. His train of logic however
was deterred by the high-pitched sound of Lute laughing in delight.
"Never mind, you’ve answered already," he announced as he moved to
the door in happy little bounds. Clari could only stand there in confusion
and watch as Lute gaily pushed the doors open. Then with a spin the Prince
turned back around and faced Clari. He pointed a finger at the tall blonde
man and grinned. "Clari-chan smiled happily at me!"
With that, the Prince left the room, running off to somewhere that Clari could
only guess at. His sense of purpose restored.
Clari sighed to himself and blew out the candles in the Prince’s room then
locked the doors as he left. Passing a mirror, he paused to look in it. Down
the hallway, he could hear Lute apologizing to people he’d more than likely
run over in his enthusiasm. Clari took one last look at his more haggard than
usual appearance. He pushed his hair from his face and straightened the
headband he wore. He looked critically at himself, the nigh’ts activities
running through his mind.
"Onii-san," he sighed out loud. Then he continued down the hall to
attend to his usual duties.